I know I haven’t posted in a while but I figured it was about time for an update. In mid June, I went back to Pine Tree Camp. I hadn’t been back as a camper since 2001. I had such an amazing time…met some new awesome people and was able to solidify a couple of other friendships I’d made when I visited for a day the last two years. I got to do some things that I haven’t done for years like archery and kayaking, and just hang out for 6 days away from reality and be around people who have had similar life experience.
Anyway, about three or four days after camp, I hit a major depression spike. I didn’t want to wake up or do anything at all for a solid 3 weeks. It is very hard to describe. I wasn’t suicidal, but at the same time I didn’t care at all if I woke up from frequent naps or in the morning. I did miss being at camp and a lot of the people there, but it was way deeper than that. I felt like I’d lost some part of myself when I left. I missed being around like minded individuals that I liked being around.
Sometime in the middle of this, I decided I wanted to try eating better and see if that would help lose a few pounds. It hasn’t really helped in that regard as of yet, but as of the last week or so my energy levels have gone up quite a bit, as has my optimism. I actually had one friend think I was going manic due to the change. I do think in going to need an adjustment to my anxiety medication, that has been kinda high… especially at night when I’m trying to sleep. I also take 10mg Melatonin, so I keep on a pretty solid schedule once I do get to sleep.
I’m also putting in apartment applications looking for an accessible 1 bedroom in my area.
I guess that’s about it for now. Peace out.